I am a bad parent?

My bad parenting just reinforces the many true points of my miserable and pointless wretched existance upon this earth. All of them beign, One no one will love me because I have become such a catastrophic failure, Two I deserve every ounce of pain I recive because I am a catastrophic failure, Three I do not deserve any love for I am a failure. No one likes imperfections or weaklings which is why I have graciously volenteered myself to die a failures death. My son is better off without me I am a terrible parent. I do deseve to die...