Horse problem again!!!?

I recently took my prize stud stallion Jack Boy and mare Dusty to a stud and she stayed there to have the baby coz all my stalls were full with other foals as a run a stud farm. On the way home i was driving my mive horse lorry with my boy friend and an idiot overtook us and had to swerve as he didnt see the car ing on the other side of the road he swerved into us and i swerved and the lorry overturnd my boyfrined rang the ambulance and i had broken my arm and coller bone, sadly my prize stallion, mare and foal all ped away, i cryed 4 months on end and i still do, i got back in the saddle as soon as i got home from hospital but i just cant get over my horses!! Plz help i miss them soo badly??